2015

I might be too late for the new year resolution XD
happy new year! welcome 2015!
first, I wish this year will be a happy year with everything going well for malaysia, for our world, with peace :)

to conclude 2014 in short, I think its a good year for myself (family/career/relationship/friends)
and I finally started fulfilling my long-lost target in 2014, no more procrastination.

For 2015
All the best for my job & studies.
in terms of job, I hope for new challenges & new things to learn
while for studies, i still aim to take 3 subjects this year and 3 more next year in 2016 and PASS all of them.

I want myself to be more mature & independent & smarter & steady in handling every matters/social & many more. jiayou!

Also hope for the best for everything for my family, my love & my friends & myself, be it health/career/love/relationship/studies/etc

hello 2015

2011 to 2013

was reading my jiejie little old blog and realizing,
how scary that the time just passed like this.....
she's been together with her bf since 2011.
2011?
that was long time ago where I dont even aware of.
It seems like 2011 stops.

Am i really old?
Its amazing that I still think I'm 21 while in fact I'm 23. lol.
Why. 
A hectic working life makes the time pass even fasterrrrrrr.
and I really dont like it.
I also cant believe i have worked for almost 6 months.
My 6 months. Other than working, what else did I do?

Nope.

I do not want to waste my time like this.
Working is necessary but I must do something meaningful.
like Travel.
I want a fun lifeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
must make use of every holidays and weekends of mine.

:)

Btw, work is still about OT but of course my life now is soooo much better than last time.
Do not need to stay till 9 or 10 anymore, walao thinking back of it I really feel suck. lol.
More steady now. 
Learned alot. Excel,Sap,account,forecast,audit,scrap,stocktake.
To conclude, excel and SAP are the basic requirements of my job scope.
I would say Excel is the most skill that I learn in this co coz basically Im using excel to do all the reports.
Second, SAP. Everyday I would need to login this system and extract/see the accounts.
Third, handling with ppl. 
boss/customer/supplier/colleagues/corporate
From the always nervous girl, then a transformation to slightly better and calm girl lol.

Working Experience, its what I gain.

My November

Life has been hectic since November....
My November is filled with all the stress from work. :(
not really happy with too much tasks, cant handle them well.
just like i said, i bring work to home everyday, even weekend.
but this is what i chose, i am always this serious.
dont wanna talk about job sooo much, i just hope that my life will be easier, given that I must be more familiar and geng and do things veryyyyyyyy fast.

But all this while Im glad that I have him who always support me,
he's the closest one right now whom I can always speak out to..
wouldnt want to complain so much to my parents, dont want them to worry so much.

 

OT is very bad, but luckily after OT i still have some enjoying moment, going for movie/dinner to relax abit..

thank him for bringing me out for good meal which can really brighten out my day.
now i even appreciate the existence of food, like barbq. lol. or sushi zanmai. thankyou.
other than that, I joined my colleagues to play badminton, which was organized by the SportClub,
that was 4 years ago when I frequently play badminton.
found that its kind of a relief after playing badminton that day, but body super painful the next day lol.
should keep this as my weekly routine.

and in this november, the happiest thing is that I went back to jb during my birthday!!!!
I miss my home so much!!!!!!!!!!!
got to celebrate with my beloved mummy who i share the same birthday with :)
my babe let me drive all the way from kl to jb, such an accomplishment for me hohohoho
a big big thanks and love for sister who brought us to an Italian restaurant..
we rarely go for western food and its a really special one! :D

 

with my mummy, happy birthday to us. may our wishes come true :)

then the night before i went bk to kl, sister brought kon and I for dinner @riverthai, our favourite barbq+steamboat yumyumyummmmmm.

hoping to get back to home asap!!!

thankyou all the ones who wished me on my birthday, muchmuch loveeeeeeeee!

 

lovely mms from my ahmei-shyan!!!!

she's coming bk on January next year!!!!!!! 

come on i bet everyone miss her so much, cnt wait to meet her,

hope all of us can gather very soon :D

really hoping for this desperately bcs we never gather together as a group since we graduated from high sch? please make this happen.

the boy offered to cook me a fine lunch to celebrate my birthday :D
its the same spaghetti that i prepared for his birthday but he added two things!
the mashed potato and baked fish!

 I love to seeeee him cook! lengzai

 

though tmr is monday..

im telling myself,

no matter what,

you still have your loved ones.

they are my motivation, they are my strength to carry on.

and all these are Learning, precious experience.

jiayouuuuuu!

i still get to enjoy my days :D

L.i.f.e - Convo,Work,HOLIDAY

Sooooo I just officially graduated on 3rd of November!!!!

My loved ones who attended my convocation, much appreciated!!!!! :D

 my family:jiejie,mummy,papa

MUACKS!!!

with my lovely and gorgeous jiejie

 

and her bf, the great camera man  

 my lovely boyfriend, another great camera man XD

My lovely coursemates+best friends of my degree life~

 

    

And thanksssssss all the ones who have blessed me :)

Thank you thank youuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is my self-portrait drawn by Floflo, it was such a sweet surprise from her! X)

Have my working life for around one month already.

Everything going good, kinda clumsy during the last week which is the peak period of my job.

Even continued my work at home till the very midnight (like 4am) because i was too afraid that I cnt complete it on time. Spent alot of time to understand the workings.

But I'm glad that after all this hard work I get to learn and know more about the things I do :)

First time is never easy but the next time you sure will be getting more familiar with it..

For now I could say that I kinda like my job which I do not get bored

Other than a certain level of pressure given by my superior, overall shes still treating me good haha.

And I hope I could perform better and be efficient in doing the reports over time!

Most importantly I do not feel alone, got alot of nice colleagues :D

For now the best best thing is the H-O-L-I-D-A-Y.
One good thing of working in Malaysia is that there are many public holidays! ^_^
Applied leave on next monday and going back to jb tomorrow!!!
YeahYeahhhhhh JB MY HOME HOW I MISS YOU!

Tomorrow

Okayyyy..feeling nervous,uneasy,complicated blablabla right now, even for the past few days.
Tomorrow will be the day I WORK.
Its not like I never work before, I know the feeling.. But the longest period i work was only 3 months.
Now this is for permanent, for few years..Woww~ Im gonna be busy.
After rusting for goddamn long at home, ya its time to get serious already :)
I believe i can adapt to working life soon.
Welcome to this society.
JiayouJiayou 
phew..
Of coz, still hope i could enjoy my life by having some entertainment even im working? Hope so!
Stay cool! phewww 

坚强

哭了一阵子
我发现如果连自己都不振作的话只会让自己越陷越深
不可以崩溃知道吗
记得以前中学每次为了学业忧郁，
压力大得不得了，每天都要为了读书的事情而哭，而难过。
那时候每次有什么事都会写在日记里，虽然开头总是在诉说不开心的，压力的，
结尾我都会写：林莉暄，加油！你可以的！
每一次都会鼓励自己，告诉自己要加油，不要放弃
多么positive，好怀念自己写diary的时光。
foundation了，写blog也还是会用这样的方式。
可是人越大了，问题越来越多，面对的事情就越复杂，越难搞，我渐渐忘了这个方式。

我一直以来都很悲观，很容易把自己搞到崩溃的状态，走不出来。
很讨厌自己这样，很讨厌人格分裂。
刚刚又把自己带到那个深渊了。
可是最后一秒我觉得不可以再这样不开心下去了，不可以碰到难题就把自己的心情推到死角去
因为我一定可以渡过这个难关的。
再难过下去只是让自己变得越弱，这有什么好？
这种时候谁都帮不了你，只有自己可以救自己。

我要加油，加油加油！