bye to 2016

2016 is ending in 8 days

i used to write year resolution in this blog, always wish that my new year is good in terms of career/relationship/family/etc...

hows 2016?

to be honest, its a good year for my career & studies

i got a promotion and two salary increments - during Jan & Jul

im thankful and i appreciated this recognition, no matter what other people have said/commented, im grateful towards my boss who had guided me so much.

i thank him for encouraging me to start my CPA when i was still young, i thank him to put priority in my studies and always approving my study leave, be it one week, two weeks...

hes a boss who values my personal development but not only for the company's benefits.

i wouldn't complete my CPA so soon without this flexibility given by him.

he has left the company at a good timing, as i have already got his acknowledgement on my experience and i am now officially a CPA.

人要感恩，不然你永远不会开心

I hope to get a new job to have a better future.

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you cant imagine your future with him and he truly knows all about this before you do
thats when you know that hes not the right one and
you are not his right one
maybe all the while this is not love
yup maybe it takes too long for us to realise but at least we do now and we learn to accept it.

so, stop dwelling on the past
yes, memories are so precious
but dont ever let them consume you 

The past is the past
you are gonna be fine
you have to let go
maybe not now
you just need time

Please believe in yourself

TIME WILL HEAL

24岁

生日过了一个小时，24岁了。
24对我来说是一个迈向新的年龄层的阶段，因为每次过完生日，就很快到下一年，那一年也算是25了  25!!!! >.<

提早跟家人庆祝了生日 :)
这年的生日愿望比较特别，愿它们都实现。

然后，刚刚读完了两个chapters，很有成就感，加油加油。
那现在我想看个娱乐性节目再睡觉。

谢谢大家的生日祝福ya
feel loved :D

Love should be happy
why I'm feeling all the pain.
I feel that I could barely take it anymore.
everything changed.
Past was PAST. should stop myself from sinking into those old memories,stop lying myself.
I want to move on.

Things get better for my working life.
I started to have some jobs to do lol. and I also adapted to this new environment.
I like the environment, the colleagues, it doesnt get you stressed bcs you feel more flexible
I can say its so much different from my ex-company
but i understand that the culture is certainly similar for most of the multinational company
alot of deadlines, everyone is busy with their work and stress gila, time difference with the HQ (overseas country), getting used to people leaving the co. all this mostly applied to finance department.
and its very normal.
the good thing is you develop alot and may get more opportunities.
but this is not the thing for me. I simply dont like this kind of working environment.
or maybe the only problem is my superior bcs i get along quite well with every other colleagues ><
I cant work with a boss under the circumstances that we both tak ngam at all.
its important to have a boss who you can really communicate with and have some connection, and willing to guide you want you to grow not just treating you as a subordinate.
during my interview with the ex-co, I already have a bad feeling.
Whereas during my job hunting lately,I got 2 offers and both bosses are really good in my first impression. I can see they care the subordinate, especially the boss which I turned down the offer, she told me she wont let her subordinate suffer/受委屈..very nice right!
While another boss kept asking me to pursue a higher professional certificate when he saw my results
Seeing the difference of all my interviews I know its a straightforward thing
you just need to talk more to find out the boss characteristics.
then you know it and sense it whether the job is the right choice for you.

anyway, I am happy now with my current job
Though I know there will be more challenges coming and I might get busy, but with the right people with the good boss I am willing to be fully committed.
If you want me to say a minus point,
I dont like working half-day on every saturday or probably friday for next year.
Seriously hate to come to office every saturday
but as time goes by, I have to get used to it and I will
:)
jiayou

也是时候长大，别再把爱情当成生活的重心为它开心为它伤心，情侣总是有过渡期。我现在学会看淡了。为自己而活世界上还有很多有意义重要的事。明天钱滚进来。

固执

感性最后还是赢了前阵子一直压制住它的理性。
我还是选择的这么固执下去

“明知道愛情並不牢靠 但是我還是拼命往裡跳
明知道再走可能是監牢 但是我還是相信只是煎熬
朋友都勸我不要不要 不要拿自己的幸福開玩笑
但是做人已經那麼累 假惺惺的想要逃
在愛裡連真心都不能給 這才真正的可笑”

残忍

明天是个蛮重要的日子
但不同往日了

真觉得
回忆是个残忍的东西

2011 to 2013

was reading my jiejie little old blog and realizing,
how scary that the time just passed like this.....
she's been together with her bf since 2011.
2011?
that was long time ago where I dont even aware of.
It seems like 2011 stops.

Am i really old?
Its amazing that I still think I'm 21 while in fact I'm 23. lol.
Why. 
A hectic working life makes the time pass even fasterrrrrrr.
and I really dont like it.
I also cant believe i have worked for almost 6 months.
My 6 months. Other than working, what else did I do?

Nope.

I do not want to waste my time like this.
Working is necessary but I must do something meaningful.
like Travel.
I want a fun lifeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
must make use of every holidays and weekends of mine.

:)

Btw, work is still about OT but of course my life now is soooo much better than last time.
Do not need to stay till 9 or 10 anymore, walao thinking back of it I really feel suck. lol.
More steady now. 
Learned alot. Excel,Sap,account,forecast,audit,scrap,stocktake.
To conclude, excel and SAP are the basic requirements of my job scope.
I would say Excel is the most skill that I learn in this co coz basically Im using excel to do all the reports.
Second, SAP. Everyday I would need to login this system and extract/see the accounts.
Third, handling with ppl. 
boss/customer/supplier/colleagues/corporate
From the always nervous girl, then a transformation to slightly better and calm girl lol.

Working Experience, its what I gain.

坚强

哭了一阵子
我发现如果连自己都不振作的话只会让自己越陷越深
不可以崩溃知道吗
记得以前中学每次为了学业忧郁，
压力大得不得了，每天都要为了读书的事情而哭，而难过。
那时候每次有什么事都会写在日记里，虽然开头总是在诉说不开心的，压力的，
结尾我都会写：林莉暄，加油！你可以的！
每一次都会鼓励自己，告诉自己要加油，不要放弃
多么positive，好怀念自己写diary的时光。
foundation了，写blog也还是会用这样的方式。
可是人越大了，问题越来越多，面对的事情就越复杂，越难搞，我渐渐忘了这个方式。

我一直以来都很悲观，很容易把自己搞到崩溃的状态，走不出来。
很讨厌自己这样，很讨厌人格分裂。
刚刚又把自己带到那个深渊了。
可是最后一秒我觉得不可以再这样不开心下去了，不可以碰到难题就把自己的心情推到死角去
因为我一定可以渡过这个难关的。
再难过下去只是让自己变得越弱，这有什么好？
这种时候谁都帮不了你，只有自己可以救自己。

我要加油，加油加油！

远距离恋爱

这几天真的很emotional ha~今天事实证明是我的荷尔蒙在作祟 XD
scroll着fb，看到一位朋友写给她bf的信息，大概是说他们交往了七年半，谈了四年的远距离恋爱，现在即将再面对多一次，不过他在她心上，她在他心上。
感动

远距离，太不容易了。
如果要搬到我身上，我和我的他是比较做不到的。
我经历最久的就只有两个月吧。
那些日子里除了常常webcam，phone，sms..
有一点我很喜欢的是，我们会透过邮寄传递小小的爱。
这样增添了更多的甜蜜，我觉得这样的小浪漫在远距离的时候是非常重要且管用的。

太太太钦佩那些远距离恋爱的情侣了，
这需要两个人的互相谅解，互相让对方感受到爱，互相去维持那份爱情。
在长久没有见面的情况下，怎么不让彼此感到冷淡，不一直争吵，不间断的联系关心,不受诱惑等等等
谈何容易呢？
两个人都要很成熟才办得到吧。
那样的爱情很珍贵很伟大。

身边有朋友正在或即将谈着远距离恋爱
真心的祝福他们，满满的祝福。加油啊！

My Happy Tuesday and my result~~

met up yongxing this tuesday :)))

went loudspeaker & sutera mall~

i think the last time i saw her was not too long ago,during january 2012.

both of us are now very free and therefore got to meet up hoho.

din sing much bcs we just kept talking, too much to catch up.

the feeling of chatting heart-to-heart with bff is just so great!

thanks for listening and sharing your stuff ^^

hope we cn meet soon, together with all other bffs, anticipating our reunion!

  

thanks for your super cute sweets, i tried, its niceeeee :D

then when i got home, received a little surprise from kon :)
hahaaa papa was there too when i opened it.
they are some useful stuffs hehe, thanks my babe for this sweet post.

hehe i have some surprise for him too, but he already know what was it, i told him coz i wanted him to choose the color he prefers,lol.

another good news, BIG BIG GOOD NEWS!

my result was out yesterday!

tiara called me and i straightaway jumped off from my chair and ran upstairs to turn on my computer.

i never had such kind of heartbeat, i wont feel like this during my last three years bcs im confident that i will pass my subjects.

when i was about to see my result, my heart was about to pop out!

tooooooooo nervous, too afraid, but i was eager to know my result!

when i saw everything on there showed PASS one by one

i was really touched and happy and glad, too many mixed feelings to describe.

thanks for these passes, i can say that i graduated :)

now the matter to be concerned is my degree class.

is either first or second upper, my average mark is too sensitive and its hard for me to classify :(

but anyway, whichever outcome, im happy with it!

ever since my AIC exam, i had been worrying non stop on whether i can pass or not.

i was prepared for the worst, prepared to see a FAIL and go for a referral for AIC.

this event traumatized me everyday, deeply into my heart T_T

also, the mark i got for this subject was way up higher than what i expect, so thanksssss! thanks to all tutors who marked my paper.

now its time for job hunting.

Lost

lost about..
where to work

what to work as

haix.

W.O.R.K.

my first proper job.

but seriously i dont wanna think about it first.

stop pestering me about this and keep asking the same question everyday.

wait result out then decide ok?

aiyoyo

:(

day with momo

met up momo on 22.5.2012 which was last wednesday~
nowadays we really seldom meet and therefore its a must to date her out before i go bk to jb..
we been sing k for 2 or 3 times,
its always fun to sing k with her bcs she's a mad lady XD
i dont need to worry for being走音破音blablabla
loudspeaker was my choice coz its really cheaper as compared to redbox/neway.
11am will be the best time, its rm9.90 for 3 hours+one drink+food per person.
but i gotta say food @loudspeaker@subang tastes awful :(
order宫保鸡丁饭and it tasted super salty and weird and yucks.
it was very different from loudspeaker@sutera,jb!sutera one tasted so nice lor.
k la anyway i still enjoyed that day :)
after that we just talked when taking bus back to taylors lakeside campus..
i feel that momo is not that kisiao, duno issit too long din meet or she changed..or maybe she only kisiao at home..last time she only showed her true self while we're at hostel.haha
but i dont feel any awkwardness chatting with her, thats what bff means i think :)
we chat about viola,kp,kon,her friends etc...lol
she told me that kp intends to stay Adelaide quite a time even after graduation..so it might be really hard for the three of us to gather, so kp if you're reading this, momo want you to bk asap.she wants to meet face-to-face instead of skype. 
about viola, hehee happy for her ^^ i cnt describe the feeling i had but its kinda touching,warm,happy,excited-all positive.
haha back to momo,
just wanna wish that everything is good for her, jiayou momo.
you know u always have me, support you always k.
if you feel unhappy/happy/anything you cn just share with me, i'll be your listener.

hope to meet you soon..

i also told her to have positive thinking,
bought a book-Secret using the free rm200 voucher and its really worth coz I do read, lol.
when i read the 1st page, it attracted me and i keep continuing until pg 65!
from what i understand, its about law of attraction where your positive thinking leads to positive outcome.
its like, the life you're having now is the result of your thinking-the friends you have,your job,everything that happens...
i agree with the friend part, 物以类聚，人以群分。什么样的人就吸引跟他一样的人。
feel that most of my friends belong to the type I am as we share some mutual personalities.
also, try not to think: "i dont want to be late" "i dont want to argue"
bcs it will normally end up:you will be late, you will argue.
like last time, my mind was all about: i dont wanna argue anymore, gosh im so tired,pls,dont argue anymore.
but truthfully, the argument just wont stop at all!
after then, i stopped having this negative thinking, things went well! :)
having negative thinking will just leave you in worse situation, try to avoid.
try listening song you like, try recalling the happy memories you had,
to bring you into good mood.
Good mood = good thinking.
positive thinking never happens if you're having a bad mood!
thats all i want to share and byeee :)