HI

Hi my dear blog
sorry that i left for such a long period
i just forgot to vent out my mood and always write what people wanna read
always afraid of exposing my inner self
i started writing diary with my small notebooks since 13.
i had many diaries
until you appear - Blogger.
I switched from handwritten to you bcs writing here is FASTER.
and blog makes it colorful.

My motto is always:
LISTEN TO YOUR HEART

LIFE GOES ON

So i vent out my feelings here since 2008....
until i got attention from ppl who always read my blog
until I always have to ANSWER.
bcs they worry me when I wrote "NEGATIVE / SAD" moments sometimes.


THAT's WHEN  I CHANGED MY CONTENT.

I start to less express my inner thought/feeling...
and I forgot I still had my diary.
I am used to BLOG.

Then i switched to DAYRE

But still, i dare not express too much negativity bcs my friends will be worried.
I started to THINK before WRITE
instead writing what I think.

That's WHEN DIARY LOST ITS PURPOSE

I gradually changed from FULL-MINDED to EMPTY-MINDED.
COZ I THOUGHT & CONSIDERED TOO MUCH.
I FORGOT TO LISTEN TO MY HEART.
I CHOSE MY BRAIN,
It bcm empty at last.
I lost myself.


ANYWAY, I finally started my handwritten diary again few days ago.
I have so much thoughts & feelings to shareeeeeeeee, I am back to myself again.
A BRAVE LLX :)

IT WAS GOD DAMN GOOOOOOOD

Seriously we have right to be sad/angry/anything, this is not called NEGATIVE / EMO.
HUMAN WAS BORN TO CRY FIRST
AND LAUGH
SINCE WHEN WE HAVE TO FORCE OURSELVES TO BE HAPPY, POSITIVE, OR FOLLOW THE WORLD RULES?????
Nope, I was once lost.

BUT I HAD DECIDED:

I decide to be ME again.


thanks.

I WONT RUN AWAY FROM MYSELF
I WILL LOVE MYSELF
LOVE OTHERS WITH MY OWN WAY